I turn 26 today (Well, technically yesterday, but it took me a while to write this). Really, I thought I'd be further along by now. On the other hand, I'm making progress. I've had a few setbacks, but I shouldn't let them kill my spirit. I've been trying to fill the social gap in my life, and it's been trudging along. I've been part of IAF and gone to D&D Encounters. I tried going to bars, but I've realized I'm not going to be comfortable in those loud places.
After being unemployed for three years, going to Grand View and working at Math Lab helped my self-esteem a bit. It's nice getting back into advanced mathematics, and it also reminds me that the depressive haze I went through at Buena Vista wasn't as thick as I thought.
I've reapplied to Graduate School at Iowa State. This is the only one I'll apply to for Fall. If I don't make it, I'll apply for spring to several places. I'm also maxing out at half-time at Grandview. At DMACC, I kept to full time and didn't get any relaxing in.
I've got Vampire/Amazon's rough draft completed. I'm still working through editing. I'm having problems with the bigger chunks I'm editing. I think I'm going to just open a new document in Word and write.
I've got one section I'm editing that way (Prove Ashton isn't a psychopath). The first time, I had his mask strip away easily. Alexis and Colin could easily get him to show that he cared about his sister. It occurred to me that no one would believe it for a second, so I had his mask on thick this time around. Colin will have to throw him on edge to knock off his mask.
I also have a project that I'm not sure I want to go on, because the nature of race in the "Other World". I know I have privilege, and I'm trying not to screw it up.
Parallel Earth (I know magic exists in the parallel earth, but I'm not sure on the level of technology. Either medieval or off-present or off-past). Has three nations: Eon, a country ruled by an evil tyrant known as the "Dark Queen" that overthrew the last evil tyrant. The tyrants have subtly influenced the nation using magic. Eon controls most of the planet, except for the African Tropics (Anteon), Japan, and the Pacific Island Nations (Exion). Why? I know some history people are going to argue, but I just want to declare fiat right there.
Eon's conquest has pretty much eradicated all the other ethnic groups, leaving those four as the dominant ethnic groups. There's a possibility some of the other ethnic groups surviving the Eon invasions as Refugees in Anteon or Exion, but if their existence came to light, it would be front-page news.
The subtle influence of magic pushes Eonites to racism because the tyrant controlling the people of Eon is at war.
The only one that had magic in Eon was the "Dark King". Exion and Anteon put their heads together, and tried to generate mental exercises to try and develop magic. Exion won. Anteon kept their mental exercises, but stopped trying to develop magic, leaving most of the nation with a higher mental aptitude that's not occupied with magic.
I'm still trying to get up my social contacts. I'll be going to another single's event tomorrow. Yeah, I may end up dating, but if I don't, that's okay, too. I just need to meet people. Even if everyone's as closed off as I am, just being there eases both our tensions.
And it's another location entirely. I hope it's better than Legends' "I don't know what the fuck's going on" policy.